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I was on facebook, thinking of all the other kids in my past that I thought I could maybe search for, and there was this ooone kid from fourth grade that I just couldn't remember the last name of...

So I started journal hunting
I pulled a bunch of journals from third to seventh grade, to see if I ever mention him
I figured out his last name wthout ever finding it, but that's not the point right now

Things I have to say....

1. HOLY CRAP my handwriting was horrible D: Apparently, I think I had this idea that writing in really big cursive made me cool or something D:

2. XDD my writing very much sucked in 3/4 grade. .__. observe

*this next portion is a randomly selected journal entry.*
*this is very bad handwriting. I'm having soo much trouble reading this right now...*
*the symbols (*) means, (insert strange wiggly lines here)*
* [#] Means, look at the notes written at the end of this entry, that is my commentary.
11-29-03
Today I went to a (*) (*). Obviously [1], it was held at the temple. It goes on until 10:00. First, We (*) at the church. Then we go to the temple and listen to some music,and after all that, Santa's imposter gives out presents. [2]
The food was great, There were all sorts of (*) and (*). I chose potato soup, I also got fresh lemon water. [3] It was great, I tell you.
The music was good too. There were all sorts of christmas songs. After a few song, all the lights go on. Everybody cheers. It was great. [4]

Alright~ So
[1]- Hey, I knew how to spell 'obviously' when I was 9 years old for some reason, that amazes me...
[2]- LMFAO Holy crap XDDD Santa's imposter! I still believe that, though...
[3]- Fresh lemon water. .__. idk there's just something funny about that.
[4]- Wooow, when did I learn the difference between future/present/past tense writing, I wonder?

3. I was a very MESSED UP EMO CHILD I started writing all that emo poetry when I was like, what, ten? =_________________= It's also kind of funny, cuz I picture a small, emo asian child wearing all white like I did in sixth grade sitting there with a pen at hand singing to herself, "I'M SO HATED NOBODY LIKES ME PITY ME!"

4. I started having issues with my brother later than I thought .__. I thought we started hating eachother around 4th grade... maybe it was sixth though thing is, we dont hate eachother now so that's good

5. HOOOLY CRAP omigosh XDDDD this is soo freakin hilarious
look, look, look listen, listen.....

7-13-5
I think Oppa (this means older brother) is mean. he blames everything on me. ( get over yourself, you selfhating emochild) He is the meanest 13 year old ever.

Lol now what's so funny about this? My brother, the one in this entry, is soon turning 18. XDDDD and here I am so intimidated by a thirteen year old brother Woow that's just weird...

6. I hated my piano teacher.

7. I read harry potter 6 when I was in 5th grade wtf that seems like not so long ago

8. my mom made us do a lot of stuff... like reading and copying daily from the Korean bible

9. I knew what 'furthermore' meant in 4th grade. .____. What did I do all day, read from a freakin children's dictionary?

10. I knew Ellen (an oldersisterlike figure) since, like, sixth grade That's so weird...

11. I had a thing with writing with highlighters... .___.

12. Again, I was a freaking emo child why couldn't i be one of those TEE HEE HEE HAPPY children? > < argh, i feel like going back in time and slapping that emo little 12 year old silly > < She cried over the smallest things.. that i would probably cry over now still, but still! So. Self. Pitying. So emotionally weak, even after all those years, it's annoying.

13. I was such a touchy child... I wrote a whole bunch of things, like Caylor took my ID and I got mad at him. I tripped over Yuuki's feet and fell on my face and cried. XDD apparently, I got really bad headaches because of that fall, and wrote in my journal, "I don't want to die~!!!" XDDD oh, the melodrama...

14. I started hating people at sixth grade. .__. friends started being a pain, people started being a pain to be nice to. oh, such melodrama....

15. My imaginary friends have gone through lots of changes, too The friends that were meanie jerks filled with gooey awfulness are today the ones that help me through my hardest DAMMITIWANTTOBEALONE times...

16. I used to be in love with a whiteboy videogame character from D.O.A 4 .____. eliot or something or other

17. I drew comic journals I wrote a lot about how I hated pe... some of these actually aren't too bad :\

18. I hated my brother because i was jealous of him. To my eyes, he was perfect, and I was always being compared to him. My parents were so proud of him. > < whatever. i think i'm over that.

19. LOL I used the word Superbad XD

20. I used to be sensitive about the mosquito bite scars on my arms and legs. .__.

21. XDDDDD
6/6/06
Today, the world was supposed to end... Oh well. Maybe next time.

22. I coped very well. I should be a therapist or something



I had issues with my family. Apparently, my mom got angry at me when I stayed up late to study, so I studied in secret when she thought I was sleeping. Then, she got mad at me for 'not studying' even though I did, but i couldn't tell her that because she would be mad that i studied while i should have been sleeping. Apparently, my mom constantly told me that being Asian lowered my chances of getting a job in America, and I had to be ten times better than the average American if I wanted to survive. Apparently, my mom never encouraged me, but always told me how worthless I would be if I couldn't be the absolute best. And if you're still reading this, thank you for caring enough : D
I think I should've been sent to a therapist when I was at least ten. I feel kinda bad for the kid who wrote these journals. (Not me, I grew out of that)

=3= MOOD SWIIINGS....






SORRY FOR THE REALLY LONG POST D; JUST ME GETTING ALL NOSTALGIC.....